Not thinking straight, my head jumbled with thoughts.
Wanting things that scare me blind
I can’t think clearly, my decisions chosen quickly and carried out clumsy reactions
Words make no sense, guarded by emotions that give me butterflies
I’m so scared, I stand still to immobilize chaotic ideas around me
When nothing stops I don’t know what to do
Years apart melt away as if everything happened yesterday, is now today,
your hold so familiar
What do I want, what do I need, what do I say when my nerves freeze as soon as words pass through my lips.
For the first time I have no idea what I should do. I crave you more but can’t let you know just yet. This drives me crazy, so scared to mess up. Like me for me and take me in your arms once again. This time don’t let go and I promise to hold on.