Darling your mind is torturing your body with everything, too busy to stress, too stressed to be busy.
Occupying your mind with too much taken on, the silence hurts more than it should, when holding conversations with your heart and your head.
I repeat advice I finally learned to take myself… breathe in and out and release it all
No holding on, don’t keep it all for later.
Talk to me, always close to listen
I worry about you and wish I could make it all better.
But for now we’ll take one step at a time
Let me carry some weight it’s just too much to hold.
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
This is it
Systems functioning as normal as can be.
Fuel can be toxic, the engines strong, no putters, no misses spitting out
Pointing a finger at two, I blame you and you
No pressure left, nothing to stress
It’s me that I want to be, can finally be.
Anxiety is something that only comes around from time to time, yet its gone before the urge to run and break free could ever take me over… as it once did
Funny how things are connected that way.
Never would have known without the perspective of jumping out and stepping back away from you two.
This is my now as I march forward freely.
My past is a part of me that can no longer control my mind, suffocate my soul or trash my heart.
It covers my body as I’m ready for the unimaginable and the ecstasy I know awaits me.
Fuel can be toxic, the engines strong, no putters, no misses spitting out
Pointing a finger at two, I blame you and you
No pressure left, nothing to stress
It’s me that I want to be, can finally be.
Anxiety is something that only comes around from time to time, yet its gone before the urge to run and break free could ever take me over… as it once did
Funny how things are connected that way.
Never would have known without the perspective of jumping out and stepping back away from you two.
This is my now as I march forward freely.
My past is a part of me that can no longer control my mind, suffocate my soul or trash my heart.
It covers my body as I’m ready for the unimaginable and the ecstasy I know awaits me.
Waiting to finish
So much I want to write down
No patience to spill, it won’t be authentic
So drained when I do
Difficulty writing the parts of me to pages of my life, that’s stuck in one spot…
The end is only the beginning
Of another chapter
Another piece that needs to be told
And not undone
No patience to spill, it won’t be authentic
So drained when I do
Difficulty writing the parts of me to pages of my life, that’s stuck in one spot…
The end is only the beginning
Of another chapter
Another piece that needs to be told
And not undone
?Me?
Where am I now with all that I have? A support system for many, a rock they say… with no tears. I learn through experience. Hard to take advice from others.
Suborn.
Suborn.
Wish you were HERE
I sit here in pain, looking at pictures of you, of us
Tears come to my eyes, but I won’t let them out.
It’s hard to deal with the fact that you’re gone
Gone forever
I’m aching, just wanting you back
I’m not ready to do this without you
I don’t know how to make it stop, I’m not sure what to do
I busy myself, to occupy my thoughts
Only to find it hurts even more when I stop.
Tears come to my eyes, but I won’t let them out.
It’s hard to deal with the fact that you’re gone
Gone forever
I’m aching, just wanting you back
I’m not ready to do this without you
I don’t know how to make it stop, I’m not sure what to do
I busy myself, to occupy my thoughts
Only to find it hurts even more when I stop.
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