I sit here struggling with the thoughts in my head.
Holding something so perfect, not sure it belongs to me.
My mind wanders in paths with dead ends, places I’ve traveled long ago.
I worry about my unconscious thoughts,
those I have no control,
no power to make disappear.
With you my mind is clear, free
But my heart is not there yet
I wait for a decision to be made, for the haze to life
For me to be with you.
I miss your company when you’re gone.
Your touch, your attention,
I crave so bad.
My struggles are hidden as you assume we’re on the same page
But here I hide a chapter before you.