missing YOU

Just breathe, she reminder herself
as she replays the memories of you;
Wondering if you were really here…

Going through the motions,
She makes it through day by day.

Life keeps testing her strength and putting her through so many hard lessons.
But some how she manages.
Time and time again she replies to these test by giving ‘life’
the finger and not backing down.

She lives her life with no regrets and a desire to help others.
But has trouble helping herself.

You see her heart is very cracked
from old wounds.
Those wounds are healed for the most part
but it seems as though something is missing.

She is searching for something she cannot explain.
Was it you?

She has her sad moments but feels comfort by a warmth from
deep within her.

Not knowing what to do, or where to go she is unsteady on her own feet.
Lacing up her shoes and grabbing her ipod,
she marches out the door, with no particular destination.
Seeking an escape from her own head.

She walks quickly, passing people on the street.
She smiles at them but rarely gets one back.
No eye contact.

Red turns to green
Don’t walk to walk,
as she makes her way down.

She ends up at the same spot.
This is her spot.
She escapes from her thoughts and can breath,
Effortlessly.

Yet you’re still on her mind.
She wonders if you think of her and if you are happy.

Her hearts been broken and broken hard.
But it wasn’t like that with you.
It was different.

Her heart sill hurts but,
it’s bigger than that.
She almost feels as though you took a piece of her soul.
When you left.

Not knowing how to get it back
Or what move to take,
she keeps her self busy to avoid the
Silence.
To avoid thinking of you.

Reaching a bench she sits.
Not to rest her body but her tired mind.
Taking in her surroundings she is captured by the golden sunset
just beginning to touch the top of the city.

A gentle wind swoops in, picks up her hair
and dances around her face.
The air is cool and crisp.
She closes her eyes and releases the frustrations,
while listening to the waves crash against the docks wooden pillars and then into the rocks.
Renewed for now.

She’s dealing the only way she knows how.
Knowing the situation is out of her control.
And believing she will be fine.

Destiny will come and find her when it’s ready.
She has faith in her happily ever after.

She sits there for you
You know where to find her
You know her heart is true.

Darkness falls as the light disappears
and the night turns on.
Not wanting to move
Not ready to leave
She is frozen.

She has run out of tears
and has nothing but hope.
You will not be quick to forget.

Time passes as she slowly gains control
Still missing you.